The Heroine Diaries by Nikki Sixx
Kelly - 3.5
To say I really liked this book wouldn't be entirely accurate. Although I did really like it, at the same time, I hated it! I found it really hard to read and yet couldn't put the damn thing down! Yeah, total contradiction I know. But what I found so difficult was literally watching a person that has played a pivotal part of my life, destroy himself through class A drugs. Needless to say, this book absolutely broke my heart!
The Heroin Diaries is a real eye-opener for someone like me. I guess I have lived a very sheltered life compared to that of a successful Rock Star, but to see the devastation drugs can cause, not just to the user, but to the people around you is a crushing blow.
There were times in this book I wanted to scream at Nikki for being so damn selfish and self-absorbed and in the next breath, I wanted to hold him in my arms and tell him that he could break free of this hell and become the amazing, talented person he once was before the drugs took over his life.
I don’t think it’s fair to say that Nikki made the excuses of his past to use drugs. With drugs comes paranoia and it feeds on those insecurities. Being a famous rock star, can, unfortunately, also pull in the wrong kind of crowds. People who say they are your friends, then ply you with pills, cocaine and prostitutes are NOT YOU’RE FRIEND! It just took a long time for Nikki to realise it.
I take my hat off to Nikki. He could have so easily have burnt those pages he found dating back to the late 80’s, but instead chose to do something positive with them by turning them into this memoir and although gritty and twisted, in the end it promises hope. It’s a strong message to those out there who may find themselves in a similar situation with regards to addiction, and if this book helps one person, opens one person’s eyes to the devastation that they cause, then Nikki’s journey could quite possibly have been worth it.