Falling Into You by Jasinda Wilder

Elizabeth - 4 crowns

Omg! What did I just read?! It starts as a gorgeous YA of first love.....beautiful...

Then....

My heart was pierced and torn apart.... Why..how could you Jasinda?!

Then...

I am in a hurricane of emotion... Just to much to bear.... I am shredded...

Then... There is some semblance of peace... I can breathe....

Then....

Jasinda, you evil woman... You rip my heart out again, and I can't breathe...

Then you give me just a little peace... Just enough... But not a single drop more...

 

Kelly - 4.5 crowns


Well that was a sob fest at its very finest wasn't it! I feel the need for a hug and a happy pill after that. Well...okay, I guess chocolate will have to suffice...lots and lots of chocolate!

Falling into you is a piece of remarkable storytelling that highlights in painful detail the sheer brutality of grief and how denying yourself to let go, to follow the natural grieving process can have long lasting devastating effects.

What is special about this book and the author is her ability to write emotion so profound, so palpable, it almost jumps out of the page and hammers you in the gut like a bloody sledgehammer. I actually winced at one point because it hurt. It hurt bad.

Nell. My goodness this heroine broke my fucking heart. The depth of her guilt and despair she felt after losing Kyle, in what was a tragic accident, and yet denying herself to let go in fear of saying goodbye was a notion I could understand but it's a tough process to partake due to the first person narrative. Nell's shoes killed me...they were seriously hard to walk in!

"I can't take it," I whisper, because a whisper is all I can manage. "It's too much. He's gone, and he's not coming back. My fault or not...he's gone. He's dead. He's bones in a box, a fading memory. Nothing stops that pain. Not even time."

Colton was the black sheep of the family. Leaving home at 17 and living on the rough gang land streets of New York, he was the opposite of his golden child baby Brother and yet the news of Kyle's death cripples the street fighting greasemonkey. When he and Nell see each other two years later in New York he knows she is still coming to terms (or not) with his Brother's death and takes it upon himself to spend time helping her to feel - to embrace that pain, to find another outlet instead of the unconventional route of hard liquor and cutting that Nell seems to have adopted as her coping mechanism.

There's darkness in this girl, now. I almost don't want to get involved. She'll hurt me. I know this. I can see it, feel it coming. She's got so much pain, so many cracks and shards and jags in her soul, and I'm going to get cut by her if I'm not careful. I can't fix her.

As they gradually form a close bond, Nell realises that she isn't the only one running from hurt and pain of her past. Ghosts need to be silenced and Colton knows that in order to help Nell open up and find her release, he will have to divulge some devastating past secrets of his own.

"We understand each other, Nelly. We've both lost someone we love. We both have scars and regrets and anger. We can do this together."

Colton is the hero of this book. He is straight up bad ass scary with a touch of Angel. I loved everything about him, including the fact that he was far from perfect, it made him more real. Solid. Believable.

This book is in two parts, the first tells the tale of how two best friends who have known each other since birth finally become lovers at 16. You experience the beauty of Kyle and Nell's innocence and watch them blossom as they take their first steps into true first love.

The second part is darker, covering elements of violence and painful truths, then finally acceptance and a sense of closure.

It's twisted, devastating, and utterly beautiful. I am so pleased I fell into this book. Word of warning though, it is heavy on the angst overload.

Invest in tissues!

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